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Post by Whisper on Oct 25, 2012 17:48:49 GMT -5
Michelle heard a knock on the door and Luther told her that she had forgotten the newer towels. She ignored him and stared down at her arm, in a world of her own she seemed lost in the desire that seemed to overwhelm her. Not many people understood why some people had the need to cut and Michelle sure as hell was never going to explain herself to anyone. She knew she had to answer Luther or he'd come in and so she did,
"Leave it at the door, I'll come pick it up."
She hoped he would leave now and her gaze trailed back to her wrist. The emotions that overwhelmed her threatened to take her sanity and she had to get it out. Crying sure as hell wasn't an option and so with a quick and even slice she slid the shard of glass across the delicate skin of her arm, watching in amusement as the blood began to seep to the surface. The emotion that had been smothering her seemed to dissipate and she sighed with relief...
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Post by ShadowsInApril on Oct 25, 2012 17:59:45 GMT -5
 He can see through you
regular, speech, thoughts, other(s)
As Luther exited the room, Lancelot entered the room noticing the bathroom door was closed and he almost used his burned and bruised hand to knock on the door, but he quickly switched hands and banged by accident on the door. "Michelle? Are you all right? Can we please talk about this, I am so sorry for what happened." He clenched his sore hand and let out a soft ahhh of pain and let his hand relax. "Michelle if you are going to ignore me i will come in"
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Post by Whisper on Oct 25, 2012 18:08:58 GMT -5
It was quite easy for Michelle to ignore Luther and soon enough he went away. She seemed delighted by the blood that created lovely little pathways down her arm and dripped into the bathtub. A bittersweet smile was gracing her lips and her emerald eyes seemed to sparkle with delight. All the emotion seemed to drain form her body and the relief that followed was soothing. With four more precise slices she created an artwork upon her arm and felt satisfied, letting the shard of glass clatter to the floor as she gazed at the five cuts that now happily and fiercely bled to the bathtub's base.
A loud rap at the bathroom door caused her to jump and instantly she heard Lancelot's name and dread settled within her heart. Why did he come up here? He mustn't see her like this. He was saying sorry and asked her if they could talk. She didn't know what to reply and quickly grabbed one og the white towels and hid her arm in it. the bathtub and shower was tainted with blood but that was the best she could do right now. He told her not to ignore her and that he'd come in and so she stood back and waited...
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Post by ShadowsInApril on Oct 25, 2012 18:25:06 GMT -5
He can see through you
regular, speech, thoughts, other(s)
Lancelot turned the knob surprised to find it unlocked, he opened the door and slowly went in not sure if she was naked or not and he peeked around the door and saw her standing at the bathtub, he gave her a crooked smile and walked closer, when suddenly he saw blood everywhere and Michelle clung suspiciously to the towel around her arm. No, she wouldn't. He grabbed her arm with both his hands even it was broken, burned, or bruised and he tore the towel of her arm, seeing her arm tainted with blood and he also saw little cuts on her arm, inside of him he wanted to yell at her and scold her and storm off but he knew that if he did that she might do something even worse to herself. He kept on holding her arm in his hands and looked at her, with tears in his eyes. This is all my fault He stood there staring at her when suddenly a tear leaked from his eye.
He let her arm go and brought his to his eyes wanting to wipe the tears away, when he couldn't hold his emotions any longer.
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Post by Whisper on Oct 25, 2012 18:40:57 GMT -5
The door knob slowly turned and Michelle was suddenly angry at herself for not locking the door. She had no idea how he would react and she was scared as hell when he came in. He came at her with a crooked smile and instantly guilt ghosted across her saddened face. There was no way he was going to miss it and she was sure it would break his heart. His smile faded and her gaze fell to the floor. He rushed closer and grabbed her arm. She protested and tried to pull it back but his grip was firm. He ripped the towel off and the five perfect cuts were exposed. They were all still bleeding profusely and when Michelle finally found the guts to look up she saw a tear roll from his eye. Guilt poisoned her heart and she couldn't take it anymore. Her blood was everywhere and she had been exceptionally selfish to do what she had just done.
"It's not what you think..."
Her words were a lame excuse and she knew it. His tears broke her heart and she didn't know what to do. She knew for sure she didn't deserve him and now he stood before her crying, ripping her heart out with the sorrow that swam in his eyes. She knew then that she was bad for him and that she shouldn't stay here any longer...
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Post by ShadowsInApril on Oct 25, 2012 18:56:36 GMT -5
He can see through you
regular, speech, thoughts, other(s)
Lacnelot gave her a "Why" look and she said it's not what he thought and saw the regret in her eyes, he looked at her arm, blood still leaking and he wrapped the towel back around her arm, he streched his arms out and pulled her closer into a hug and hold her close, tears still streaming down his face but he made no sound. He only held her, feeling so broken inside, he didn't want anything to happen to her and he didn't want her to leave even though he did cause this... He let her go tilted her chin with his one hand up and said to her. "Michelle... I... I love you, and I know what happened here is my fault, but I was afraid that if I let myself do everything and anything it desired you would get hurt, and I promised myself and you, that you won't get hurt... And... And I failed... I broke my promise I am so sorry."
He left the bathroom, went to his room, put on a shirt and his pants and coat. He went to the front door, Luther standing by him and he asked him to not let Michelle out of his sight. So Lancelot left and walked in the garden around his house and found the swing he had set up a few months ago, he sat down on the swing in the darkness looked up at the sky and saw even the moon hated him, because it was pitch black. He got off the swing and move to lie down on the grass, feeling a cold breeze playing through his clothes. He shivered and saw the bathroom light go out.
Luther was right by Michelle's side the whole time, making sure she didn't do anything unnecessary and making sure she didn't go anywhere without him, until Lancelot came back.
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Post by Whisper on Oct 26, 2012 0:36:03 GMT -5
Michelle couldn't remember this much pain in her life and it sure as hell wasn't caused by the cuts on her arm. Yes they were deep and still bled, but her heart was hurting so much more. She strengthened herself and didn't want to break eye contact with Lance again. Every minute she gazed at him was painful, but it was like her consequences for what she had done. She had to pay for her actions and when she saw the why in his eyes mingled with tears she could feel her own eyes burning.
He delicately wrapped the towel back around her arm and it didn't take long for it to become quite extensively bloodied. He pulled her closer and she went willingly, even though being in his arms broke her into a million pieces. She could feel the tears on his face, the raw emotion of the moment, everything her fault. If she hadn't cut then he would have come in, hugged her and everything would have been alright, but no... she just had to go too far. She held on to him for dear life but he let her go and tilted her chin up but her eyes only made contact a second later. His words were bittersweet when he told her he loved her and she couldn't look into his eyes any longer. He then said that what had happened here was his fault and here she looked up at him fiercely. She had to let him know that he couldn't take responsibility for her own bad habits. He said sorry and she tenderly placed her hand on his cheek,
"Please don't, Lance... You shouldn't say sorry. It's not you fault please...
He left, along with all her emotions and Michelle fell to a heap on the floor, broken enough to sob her heart out but her eyes were open and dry, staring into space. Her lips were drawn in a straight line and no emotion whatsoever could be seen in her. She looked to be ice cold, dead even and a moment later Luther appeared. He remained suspiciously close to her and led her to the bed, sitting her down and started to clean the wounds on her legs with an anti-septic. It stung like hell but Michelle sat there unflinching until all of them stopped bleeding and stinging. She was still clutching the towel to her arm and when Luther took it the blood had already dried and as it broke contact with her arm the dry blood opened the wounds again and Luther almost seemed to cringe but she never once moved her eyes from the spot on the wall$ he went through the same motions, cleaning it with the burning anti-septic and a single tear rolled down her cheek, but only one which she wiped away with her free arm before Luther could see it. He bandaged her arm and ghosted out of the room. Time seemed infinite as Michelle remained where she was, not moving once...
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Post by ShadowsInApril on Oct 26, 2012 6:39:08 GMT -5
He can see through you
regular, speech, thoughts, other(s)
Lancelot lay on the grass and watched as Michelle's light went out, he waited for an hour hoping she was fast asleep, he sent Luther a text asking if she was fine and asleep and he texted back that she was. He stood up and walked into house, grabbing Blackcurrant's keys and got into her and drove off, he texted Luther to keep an eye on Michelle and that he will be out for the night, he'll be back later. Lancelot went to the local bar and sat at the bar and ordered two shots of vodka and a glass of scotch, he downed everything and ordered a beer. A girl came up and started to talk to him asking him stuff and gave her a not now look, he got another beer and the girl left after 2 more beers she came back and started to touch him and kiss him and he flipped knocking over his left over beer and called her a w* and said she should get out of his face, when the bouncer came up to him and asked him to leave, he collected his stuff and walked out the bar, totally drunk. He couldn't even walk straight, somehow he got home safely and he got out of his car. Locking it, and walked to the front door, and the world started to turn and the key hole dodged the key the whole time, he opened the door after a few attempts , he walked up to his room fell down on his bed when the world started to turn faster and suddenly it went black, and he passed out.
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Post by Whisper on Oct 26, 2012 8:27:16 GMT -5
Musical inspiration: Cut - Plumb
Luther remained in Michelle's room and still she sat staring at the wall. At first many thoughts ripped through her mind and she was finding it hard to deal with them all. She wondered why Luther was still there and looked over to him, almost glaring. She wanted to be alone right now, but after the stunt she had pulled she knew the chances of that was a little small to non-existent right now...
"Are you going to baby sit me all night?"
Michelle turned away from him and softly touched the bandage that covered her cuts. It was a little sensitive but she didn't mind,
"Can I at least get dressed?"
Luther nodded and exited the room and Michelle slipped into her PJ's and into bed as well, curling up into a little ball she knew Luther would come check on her and so she put the light off and closed her eyes...
Sometime after Luther came to check she fell asleep and suffered fitful nightmares. Sometime after midnight she woke with a start and an uncontrollable scream and sat up, looking around her in fear...
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Post by ShadowsInApril on Oct 26, 2012 8:45:58 GMT -5
Luther woke with a scream ringing through his ears and he knew that something wasn't right, he burst into Michelle's room and saw her sitting up straight and he walked up to her sat down next to her and asked."Are you ok Michelle?" We gestured to her if he should hug her and waited for her.
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Post by Whisper on Oct 26, 2012 8:59:41 GMT -5
Fear seemed to grip every fiber of her being as Michelle had to remind herself where she was and that she was alright. A moment later Luther burst through her door and Michelle jumped at the sudden intrusion and drew her legs up close to her chest, burring her face behind her knees, Still no tears would come and slowly Luther made his way over to her. She felt him sit down next to her and suddenly felt embarrassed to have him see her like this but she decided to not care right now and actually was relieved to have him here after that god-awful dream. He asked her if she was okay and without answering she fell into his open arms. He held her tight and if she could she would have cried,
"What's wrong with me?"
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Post by ShadowsInApril on Oct 26, 2012 9:06:03 GMT -5
Luther looked at her and smiled at her, tilted her chin up, and said."My dear, there is nothing wrong with you, we all have our problems and we all have our special way of dealing with them, take me for instance I like to eat chocolate and watch a sad romantic movie to get over my problems." He smiled at her giving her a calming gaze into her eyes and saw that if she could she would have cried her heart again, he then took her hand in his and said to her.How about we go to the kitchen and I make us a cup of hot chocolate and I'll dish us each up a bowl of strawberry and cream ice cream, or which ever flavor that is in the freezer you want. Come on. He stood up and took both her hands in his.
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Post by Whisper on Oct 26, 2012 9:20:07 GMT -5
Luther lifted Michelle's chin and reluctantly she looked up at him as he spoke,
"My dear, there is nothing wrong with you, we all have our problems and we all have our special way of dealing with them, take me for instance I like to eat chocolate and watch a sad romantic movie to get over my problems."
She smiled a little at his confession but the sadness was still all too evident in her eyes. His own gaze was so calm that it seemed to affect her and she breathed deeply. He took her hand in his and he asked if she wanted to go to the kitchen for hot chocolate and she smiled a weak smile and nodded her head,
"Okay..."
He stood up and took both her hands and she followed him down the stairs to the kitchen...
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Post by ShadowsInApril on Oct 26, 2012 9:33:44 GMT -5
Luther helped Michelle to the kitchen and told her to sit on the chair and he started to boil some water and got two bowls out of the cupboard and fetched the ice cream and he scooped them both one scoop he placed the bowl in front of Michelle and then made the hot chocolate, when suddenly he heard gravel slide under tires and looked out the kitchen window to see Lancelot back from where he was, he gestured a stay put and shh to Michelle, Luther heard a struggle at the keyhole and then suddenly he saw Lancelot come in, he staggered a bit and went up to his room, he walked over to Michelle and said."Well that's his special way of dealing with problems, best if we leave him for a while, so tell me Michelle, why don't give me a little smile? It's such a beautiful smile and one can truly see the joy in your eyes when you smile." He tried to cheer her up.
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Post by Whisper on Oct 26, 2012 10:51:27 GMT -5
Luther placed a bowl of ice cream in front of Michelle and she smiled her thanks at him and started to lick some off of her spoon as Luther put the kettle on to boil. Michelle was about to ask Luther something when the screeching of tires and the shifting of gravel caught her attention. She stood up from the kitchen stool and gazed outside to see Blackcurrant being parked in the garage and looked at Luther with alarm. Luther gestured for Michelle to keep quite and stay were she was and slowly she sat back down. There was a struggle at the door and suddenly Lance burst into the room. He was obviously drunk and Michelle cringed to see him like that and not be able to do anything about it. Then again it was all her fault. She had caused him to react this way and now she felt more guilty than ever.
When Lance was all the way to his room Luther came over and told Michelle that that was the way Lancelot handled things, just like Michelle cut to handle her emotions. He then asked her for a smile and she looked up at him with more sadness than before and a perfect tear slipped down her cheek. She had never felt this sad before and this was her second tear in one day!! What was wrong with her?
"I can't... I have to... I can't stay...
With a last ditch effort she got up and ran for the door and disappeared into the night. The cold bit at her exposed arms and legs and her night dress was not the smartest idea to be wearing outside but still she ran, entering the woods with tear blinded eyes. She was far into the woods when she tripped and fell, remaining where she fell and suddenly burst out in tears...
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